3 Days Before Result Day

Nervous, nerve racking, butterflies are in my stomach, feel like going to toilet and blah blah blah..Well, I can feel all kinds of nervousness right now..
Result day, 19 December 2012, Form 3 PMR result is coming out!!!
Hmm....What will I get on that day?? How would I feel? What are my friends reaction? What will my parents think? Will I get my reward as what my dad had promised me? Too many questions run into my mind..
Well, everyone hope for the best, so do I.. Hmmm.. I just hope I could get the result that I deserved.
I've confirmed that I got 2As in my result but who knows what will happens..? The other 6 subjects will surely in my hands also, but I just cant read the future,so what I can do is to wait and see..
Here, I wish the PMR students all the best and good luck~~ If we fail our targets to get 8As, don't worry..This is not the end of our journey.. We are young, we have time, we still can catch our dreams~~Keep our spirits up!!
;)
Signing off~~

Signing In~~Talking Bout Memories~

There's been so long I have left my blog for a few months..

Now is December..When was the last time I wrote a post?

Next year is 2013 and I need to look forward for every targets, the old memories have to dispose from my brain..

Year 2012 was the worst year ever..

Talking back about the old memories was really hurting...

Making new friends, results, ex-boyfriend, new enemy, having best friends, things that I doesn't wanna know and blah blah blah~~~~

There's so many memories that I don't want to remember..But some are memorable~~ :D

Talking back one by one:

1.Met new friends in class (January)

At first, I dislike some strangers get into our family, but then after discover that they are really cool,nice,helpful and funny people, I treat them like my brothers..We are one family, we are all Diamonds~~ :)

 2.Pressure starts (February)

Start to work so hard to get into the top 10 in class..Discovered that the new syllabus were quite tough and afraid that I couldn't cope.. Other than that, kept thinking about the guy that I have crush for years.Try to do what's best to be a prefect and get to know him...But still, I failed to know him..Thought that I am brave enough to handle this problem, but I failed my mission to get to talk to him..

3.Discover many things (March)

After I knew my result, I knew the new people were even smarter than me..Pressure got higher..everyone of my friend got into top 20 and I am still at the back. No improvement at all. Besides, I started to realize that me and him were impossible to know each other..It was not his problem, it was mine..I am the one who wants him so badly but I never make any action to get it... Plus, I found out that me and him have nothing in common..At last, I chose to let go.. another mission failed..

4.Meeting new friends during prefect camp (April)

They are all my seniors and juniors..Some of them are tough leader and some are weak and still not ready to become a leader of the prefect..Meanwhile, I got to know more about my old crush..started to fall in love with him again but I know he had a girlfriend..So, I let it go again.. Telling myself to concentrate in my studies and forget about all the crushes.. I thought I was wide awake..

5. Got a boyfriend for the very first time. (May)

I thought my first boyfriend was a guy that I am in love for a long time..Thought that my first boyfriend was a charming person...Guess I was dreaming and living in Disney world..I was naive..Chatting everyday and night on the Facebook.. Seldom sees each other in school or even talk to each other.. Then we got into a relationship. What a joke..I don't understand why I accept him..He was not my type at all..The worst part was, he is a Muslim..My family will never accept a Muslim in our life and so do I..But that's what people says, love is blind.

6.Broke up for the very first time with him. (June)

One month past, I cant bare this relationship anymore..I often wonder what's the problem between us..Well, I can tell..He was a trier.. He doesn't have faith in himself to fix this relationship, to make both of us happy or even keep this relationship to be perfect.. Maybe I was his first girlfriend, so he cant handle all the situation..

But still, I let him go since I often wonder weather I really love this guy or I was trying to get a relationship like other people does.. Since mine was not happy so I let it go..Two weeks later, I find out that he asked for a second chance from my friend, what a coward..I was mad and I rejected him..At home, on my wall, I kept seeing his posts bout relationship stuff and got me guilty for no reason..Then, I gave him a chance to explain and talk to me..Then, for the reason that he was really sincere to me and everyone deserve another second chance, we got back together..

7.Examination starts, pressure got even higher, PMR was nearer (July)

Works even harder that time to beat all of my friends.. It was really competitive in the first class..Everyone was aiming for the best and all of them works even harder that time. I got distracted by my boyfriend because we often have conflicts and arguments, but still we study together because we both face the examination together although we are different age at the different class.His birthday was 31 July, so I wasted a day to learn how to bake a chocolate cake for him as a birthday present but what I got was a  half bottle of Sticky from him as my belated birthday present..-sigh- I still could bare it..

8.Holiday for a week, exams over, broke up for the second time. (August) 

Examination was over, everybody was happy..Hooray~~!!!!We were happy together although there's nothing special happen between us until the day comes..I broke up with him for the second time..I had enough with him..I started realize that he don't deserve me.. I deserve even better.. He let me cry for him too many times..Every time we have an argument, he will just let me won the argument and he fight back pointlessly..I was tired with him to be my boyfriend because he was a coward and he was helpless..I often told myself that I am his first girlfriend, so he cant handle some situation, but no~~I was so wrong..So that night I chose to let him go and I gave the reason that I got distracted by him and I cant focus on studies..

The next day, I awake and I cried for no reason..I thought I was off with him..Then, I realized that I truly in love with that guy. So, I text him and say sorry and I know it was pointless because this was all my fault..I got reject by him and that's really hurts..I cried for 3 hours non stop and I don't understand why I got so hurt after that broke up..This was the worst memory that I don't want to remember..

9.Revision class starts and still stuck with the feeling. (September)

Everyday I forced myself to drink a can of coffee to keep myself awake for extra tuition class after school. Every night busy doing school work meanwhile still crying for that jerk that claimed that he is my enemy.. He deleted and blocked me on Facebook after we had an argument again. I was so hurt again and I cant believe that he was so childish and super sensitive.. From that day onwards, I truly knew that I hate him..I chose to let him go and this time was for real..He screwed up our relationship on being friends and also being a couple..He don't deserve both of it..

10. PMR, exam weeks, everyone was prepared. (October)

Time and tide waits for no man.. Everyone was busy studying for their PMR and so do I. I kept doing revision on every subjects because I aim for 7 As..I cannot fail this mission this time. Not this time..There were too many mission I've failed to do,so not this time.. I do well on the exam day but I broke down when I was about to face the history paper..I was worried that I couldn't get an A for it because I have wasted 3 months with that jerk and I did loss focus on my studies sometimes but this was not the main reason for dumping him..After the history paper, I checked my paper and I got only 3 mistakes for this subject..I was on cloud nine.

11. Truly let go the hurting feelings bout that jerk and I got a part-time job. (November)

My new target was to get a new S2 and I put it as my future boyfriend.. I told myself to be materialistic. So, starting from now, I will never be that naive anymore..I wasted 3 months with that jerk and took another 3 months to forget bout him...So, now God is giving me a chance to change my life, I cant ruin it.. I got a part-time job to earn extra money to get my future boyfriend from the shop but life is not easy..There's ups and downs.. So the problem occurred  when my manager never told me the rules and regulation about the job properly..So I felt that I got cheated by him and I quit my job.

12. Sitting at home and Facbooking everyday like a boss. (December)

Waiting for my results to come out on 19 December..Still not ready to take it but the day will come..So,just wait and face the music...Of cause I haven't give up on my future boyfriend that is still waiting for me at the shop..I am thinking of going back to work because I have no choice..Still considering..And now I am sitting in front of the computer and typing my memories out..

2012 is going to over...Some even says 21 December is the end of the world..Well, we are still human, we cant read the future..so I have to just wait and see what will gonna  happen to our mother earth..:D

Memories stops here~~ 

Signing off... 

Kinda Disappointed~

This month, hiaz~
Very tired,very stress,very busy,very disappointed~


Tired:
The prefect camp...
I felt so freedom and happy when I'm not at home for 3days2night...
We prefects went for a camp at Ulu Langat, Sungai Lepoh.
There were many activities that can make you exhausted such as jungle tracking and midnight walking.
We only slept for 5 hours in these two days.
My toes were swollen, my knees were hurt and my muscles cramp after doing all these activities.
I also heard some noises and weird sound during we went for the midnight walking.
But overall, I enjoy these trip...
I get to know many seniors and juniors in all these activities. 
Well, it was kinda sad when I knew that he din'tn join us but never mind, I can understand~
What I love the most was the waterfall.
I really love the feeling when all of us were splashing water at each other, it was just like a big happy family.
Although it was tired but it was worth it and I will join the prefect camp again next year.


Stress:
I think most of my teachers are crazy~
They gave us so many homework and we have to finish up in just a short time~
5 BM essays in one short and other homework such as Maths and Chinese.
Other than homework, suddenly, teacher told us that we must get our history and geography projects done in just one and a half week.
Is this crazy?!
So tension!!
Although we are the first class students, but we are not a super heroes!!!
We sometimes need a break..
I know we are sitting for PMR this year, but still, we need to rest when we need to.
I go to bed at 2am in the morning everyday, I cant concentrate in class and you guys expect me to get a flying colour result?
Come on man~
Give us a break~


Busy:
I have to catch up so many things in a short time
.I have school work, tuition work, projects, teakwondo demo and revision to do!!!!
OMG!!
No rest at all~
This causes me to quit the choral speaking inter school competition!!!
SOOOooo SAD!!!
I wanna gain more experience and I don't think I can join choral speaking next year anymore~
-sigh-


Disappointed:
There are so many things that I cant complete....
Exam results, sucks!!!
targets, none of them complete.
Useless~

After Becoming A Prefect

Becoming as a prefect is not fun at all.

Is always busy and we have to face all the weird behavior students in school.

I don't understand why cant these sick students behave just like the other normal students do.

Always have discipline case and blah blah blah....Sick!!

Other than facing all these people, we also need to miss maybe about five to ten minutes of our lesson everyday.

And do you know how precious are these five to ten minutes time?

Teacher can teach almost a quarter of the lesson in just a short time..

And the conclusion is, we still miss a quarter of our lesson.

Fortunately, this is not really a big problem to me. Cause all of my class teacher are sucks..

I don't really understand what are they teaching so I don't really pay attention in class.

Hence, I only pay attention while I attend my tuition class...

Well, maybe is a little bit tough, but I still can handle it~

At least I like my job...-wink-

Oh Yeah!! SOooooo Excited!!!

Tomorrow I am going to wear a blue blouse, blue half skirt and a blue tie to school~

Because.....I am a prefect now!!

I'm sick of my old uniform because I look so fat in it.

I think I look cool in my new uniform.

I guess tomorrow is the result for Talent Time competition too.

I hope I could get into the top three of cause~

Well, I really thought my singing was suck on the other day.

But surprisingly today my sir asked me to sing in front of my taekwondo senior and junior because he said I sang so well on that day...

OMG!!!

My sir said that to me!!

Oh Yeah!! This means I still gain a chance to win it!!

Must have FAITH for myself!!

A Tired Week!!!

Yesterday was the last day of debate competition. This means it is the final..
All of us didn't get enough sleep and just to complete the points and text..
We miss all our classes and lesson for this debate competition...
So, from the start, I keep promising that we, the debate members at least have to get into the top three...
Fortunately, we got into the tree place!!!
Although we are not as good as good as the other school, but we've tried our best...
At least we won over Segambut Jaya, Chong Hua, D.I.Y and Convent school..
I'm pretty sure that SMK Menjalara were very proud of us...
WE ARE THE HISTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!! WELL DONE DEBATE TEAM!!!

Today was my important day ever!!!
I was overjoyed when I got to know that I've made it..I'm a prefect from now on!!
But, no one knows that I'm might transfer to other school next year...
Although this school is not the best school ever, but I will miss all of my friends and teachers..
They are so good to me especially my classmates...
Well, there have crazy ones, quiet ones, friendly ones, serious ones, genius ones, cool ones, blue minded ones, insane ones, joyful ones, sporting ones and talkative ones in my 3Diamond,the best class ever...
We are very serious when comes to exam week but we can also be super crazy when comes to exciting week...But most of the time we are crazy and insane in the class...
Where to get classmates as perfect as these???
I will always remember all of you...
3Diamond's slogan is "Diamond Shines A"...We are as perfect as Diamond, we are all intelligent students with a good behavior...We are the best!!!
So, we must do our best to get straight As!! n_n

Besides, today is the talent time competition and I'm really nervous...
I was hoping that I can sing well but I need not..
I really felt so disappointed...
I came to join this competition is to win it but obviously the first place has given to other person...
The worst part is, "mystery boy" was there~
I'm sure he was keep laughing in his heart instead of clapping his hands and support me...
I'm such a lame person!!!!
I wanted to let him know that I'm different from other girls but I think I've failed to prove it...
This performance was sucks!!!
But I'm not gonna give up!!
The results is on Monday and we will see....
I always told myself that "David loves me if I'm not a loser"
I'm not a loser!! I won't give up that easily!!
No matter in what situation, must have faith for myself...

Exam Is Around The Corner!!

Next week is the exam,
And I haven't finish my revision yet...
Today in school, Pn.Devi gave us history paper work to do...

I got 52 over 60...That's a excellent result...
But, I never do it on my own...
I asked for help...I only knew how to do a few and the rest was form other friends opinion..

I'm so dead...
I don't know how to face the exam...
Everyone has to get 65 marks above for history and if not, Pn. Devi is going to skin me alive...
TT

Can anyone help me??
><

I'm Not A Patience Person

I waited for coming 3 years,But I still cannot get what I want...
Today, I hope I had did the right thing...
Although cant get it in school, but I'm sure I can get it in Facebook.
A slip of my hand, I press "Send Friend Request" to him..
And I'm started to worry..
I don't know what the hell I'm worry about but I didn't cancel the request...
I just really hope we can be friends and know each other well...
Hope you are not reading this...
Because this is very obvious that I have feelings for you...^^

My Friends Agree That He Is Cute!!!

Mystery boy!!
The boy I've admire for a long long time ago..
But not many people know...

Out of the blue, today me and my friends are talk about the most handsome guy in my school...
Wow, this is a good topic...

Jessica said it should be our head prefect.
Well,for me I think he is just okay but he cant be the handsome guy...

For Malay guys, Su Ying said it should be the one of the Malay boys from 5Diamond...(unknown)
I think it should be one of the form 5 prefect....(unknown)

Later on, we come back for the Chinese guys...
Su Ying suggested "Mystery Guy"....!!
And Jessica said:"erm...that boy not bad"

I'm speechless when I heard they mention his name...
I cant believe that they say he is cute~

This means my taste are not bad!!!
Yeah!!!
That's why I must know him...

I know he is a perfect one...

I was thinking about you,
I drew a little picture,
But some things you cant put on paper..
It's gonna be worth it,
Cause that's what love is,
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect...
I know, I know, he's gotta be out there, out there
I know I know he's gotta be...
Maybe I'm wrong,
Maybe I'm right,
Maybe I just let you walk by,
What can I say,
Maybe I've known you all my life,
Is she the one? Is it today?
Will I turn the corner,
See my future in a beautiful face,
Maybe....
They say give it time
Give it time, and it will fall in line
But I keep wondering how and when
And why I haven't met you..?

Don't Know What The Hell Happen To Me!!

Sad, frustrated, mad.....

Something went wrong in my head....
In this month, there have so many weird things happen to me...

First, is my voice...
I'm joining the Talent Time Competition and I don't know what song to sing...
I just feel like wanna cry...TT
Another big problem is, I cannot sing with the music because I'm so use to sing in the acapella version...
Oh my goodness!!!!
If I fail this time, I'm gonna face the music...
I got to win the competition!!!!

Second, is my examination...
I can't study all the chapters in a week!!
I need more time!!
I have forget all the form 2 lesson..
I can't even recall all the basics that I've learn, especially Mathematics and Science...
I'm seriously in the hot water now!!

Third, is my feeling to someone special...
He is one of my important target this year....
Unfortunately, I haven't try to get to know him yet and now is already the second month of the year...
I know why, because I'm a coward!!!
There have so many chances that are just in front of my eyes but I still dreaming!!!
My God!!!!!!

I'm really suffering now!!
This is an important year for me!!
I have plan all my targets and none of them succeed....
Arh!!! I'm so dead!!!!! ><

Like You But Cant Tell~

I don't have the guts to talk to you...
Always ask people what kind of topic that I can share with you...
I almost follow everything that you do...

Hoping and trying to get a chance to have a good conversation with you, but I always fail to do it because I'm a coward...
I always wanted to be brave but when I see you, I feel shy and I can't even look at your face...TT

I always think that your friends know that I had a crush on you but actually it is just my imagination...
I tried to find out more about you but I failed because you are too secretive...
My friends always think that I'm a stoker and they get annoyed when I keep talking about you..

Do you know that I'm exist in this school?
Or you can't even remember my name?
I hope you can remember me although I'm not that famous in this school...

You are one of my target for this year....
I wanna know you....
I wish you are my kind of perfect...^^

BBQ in "Africa" at Jia Qi's House

On 2.30pm reached Jia Qi's house with Nurul Fatin.
Carrying a white guitar and learn the basics.
Jia Qi taught us how to play the song titled "A thousand years" with her piano.

Sang "Set fire to the rain" by Adele, "The one that got away" by Katy Perry, "You lost me" by Christina Agureilla, "My kind of perfect" by David Archuleta in front of Jia Qi and Jia Wei's friends.

I got good comments from all of them.
All of them ask me to choose "The one that got away" by Katy Perry for the Talent Time Competition.
I seriously don't have to confidence to sing that song. At last I choose "Zero Gravity", piano cover by David Archuleta.

On 6.30pm, went for cycling with Nurul Fatin.
Princess Nurul Fatin don't know how to ride a bicycle...Poor Thing...
Taught her so many times still cannot get it...==

On 7.00pm, the party starts!!
Here comes the boys AKA the "Crazy Crew"!! Jia Wei's boy friends were here...
We started to grill the food and the boys were making lame jokes.

Here is our food~
Looks delicious right?

We were waiting the food~


After grilling the food, we started to eat our food inside the house and taking some photos...
Party over on 11.15pm....
Is a very nice party and I enjoy it...
Thank you Jia Qi~^^

15 Minutes Birthday Party

Happy Birthday to you!!
Sorry because this party is not fall on yr birthday, please except my apologies.^^
For me, you are just like my biological brother...
Hope you are happy with my spaghetti....

I'm happy when you gave me full marks for my cooking and sincerity...
Thank Yea!!!
This means I can be good chef...:p

Although I rushed back from school to cook this plate of spaghetti, but I fell glad after I've done it and his expression told me that it taste good when he tasted it...
Yeah!!!Although this party was only for a while, but I really enjoy it....